This Clean Eater had Sushi Today

Buckle up we know this isn't just about sushi. I mean isn't that life, it gives me sushi and all of sudden it relates to how stickler i can be of my own beliefs and values. Just like that we flow in and out indulging in life's pleasures only to hear the faint voice that steers you away of that like a curious child.

Thankfully. We can surrender to life's #eb and #flow.

Back to it i had sushi yesterday. My daughters asked me out of sheer excitement, "can we get sushi today?!

I didn't feel like lecturing on "is this a good choice of food" or "we should eat something more clean".... Thoughts from the box I put myself in as a vegan, plant base, and even clean eater. Ugh! We get it, so, i surrender to child like play and off to the sushi bar we went. What a sweet surrender!

Then it hit me. I have tried to run from the art of cooking. All because the burden of having to do it for a long period of time, it took the pleasure and joy i had for away. So protesting to myself and those that i romantically meet. " i gave up cooking'' Them wondering and asking, well can you cook? I feel I can I shyly state. What was that?

Ah, A flash of my past relationship that lasted almost a decade showed me a glimpse of the burdened woman that wore many hats. And bit her words at times because, i mean shouldn't the person your with, know? Hear me out even after stating your needs and wants? I was yeaning for the need of support, because i also wore the corporate woman hat and, also the hat of a entrepreneur, mommy, wife, daughter. ( i just got a glimpse of my self looking at my then self with all these plates that seemed to just magically appear)(hold this thought when we talk about Taurus energy)

But, the biggest weighted hat and plate was the prefect mother, and perfect wife one. That hat was heavy so heavy, i held my words passively showing myself i could do it all, while crying on the inside dreaming of a true team mate and partnership that felt supportive . So i picked up 3 teams to coach in volleyball. (makes sense right) 3 teams at that. "Life can be so cynical" an old friends words sweep my mind. Ok we get it, we see how how this life thing #flows right?!

So, here we are today, with joy i say "you want sushi again today?" Yes! said my daughter with excitement and a smile.

I'm home having everything i need to make Sushi but, this time every ingredient i have to make it is healthy and plant base to eat. Its how i prefer to eat at home clean, light and plant base. While also allowing myself to find pleasure in certain foods outside of my home, is life!.

(Even if i have to alchemize it).

With that, it gives me the space and freedom to create and, be free to create out of experience given to me! That's exactly what i was doing! Creating!

#lifeanditsinfiniteloop

So, it makes sense now', with the sun leaving #Taurus the sign of "I Value" we know they love some food... hehe! And i truly can connect with them now on this. Seeing their love and expression for food, how they taste the world though their sense of mouth is... My son is Taurus! And let me tell you something * Homeboy can throw down... But to actually understanding it is different. Allowing him to experience food in this pleasurable way but, also being that guidance to him, to be intentional ,aware and in balance when doing so. Knowing when your teetering to much this way or to much that way. And in return he shows me to love out loud, taste the world freely!

See what i mean about having a that so raven moment lol

The complete joy i felt having these ingredients avaible to me that makes my body happy. The love taking over me because, I knew already what I was about to eat was something I created and it was going to be bomb!! It brought life, it brought fulfilment, it brought love to me in all the ways. I sit here now experiencing those feelings again just to be humbled by gratitude! *sigh.

I found love again with cooking.

I love to serve and be served. I love the experience people have when i feed them lol. Its the best pat of being what i call a divine feminine(if i had to label it). Because, its so pure in love, when its experienced with out balance it feels frightening. You seems to feel so behind in not knowing this sooner, then, the thoughts of societies restrictions come to war. I'm out that that war actually, been out for awhile i just didn't realize it.

So... its important to say no when needed and yes to you in need!

That what I'm given when I serve and when it feels taken for granted the emotions, the feelings, the alchemy, its a deep process. So I put myself first! feeling and trusting the flow. Remembering to let go when needed. (Are we still talking about sushi?)

That's it that's self love through food! Ok, Ok I'll share the video of my few small interactions with myself creating a meal, that leads to me loving a part of me again.

#letschataboutit

What did you value this season? Moving into Gemini season the "I Think" we get to intellectualize and express our values. You will get a chance to see those values come to mind in who you think yourself to be.

I had a chance to really look at what I value, Who is valuing me, and am I truly valuing all that I am.

I hope you do the same! Love on yourself and those who love on you!

There's being the best at what you do, Then there's in whatever I do, I do my best! #Iloveme